where next...

after the marathon sprint to Iowa and back this weekend, I have decided that there is no greater simple pleasure in life than road trips with people you love. there is simply nothing better.

sunny...

I'm strangly upbeat, positive, happy and optimistic. Is this what it is to be satisfied and fulfilled?? Or maybe it's just the weather? I know it won't last forever, but it's a definate blessing and encouragement- especially during this crazy busy time of the year. I'll try not to be too annoying with my perkyness! :)

how vs why

I'm moving away from the hows in life and focusing more on the whys. We always think about the hows: how to get a mate, how to get food, how to get sex, how to get whatever.... but why? We pretty much ignore it. How leaves you with a lot more black and white, cut and dry, solutions and answers. Why leaves you open and alone in the land of the gray. And for some reason, right now, the hows: the answers and solutions aren't that much fun. I'm really enjoying being lost in the fog of the whys. Why are we designed to need other people? Why are we wired to need relationships? Why is there love? Why?

feeling

I feel passionate about something in my life again

It's been a long time

And I don't mean any of that in the bad way, I mean it all in the most wonderful and fantastic way possible

There's an aimless, floating, survival-only way of living life and after experiencing it for awhile there, I am so thankful for something that I care so freakin much about

Extreme care brings about the potential for spectacular hurt, but I can't stop myself from running ahead full force

I'm so thankful for feeling and I'm so thankful for such wonderful, confusing, enticing, powerful feeling

Now, as soon as I regain my ability to cry again, we will know I am fully back... fully back and better than before